1st meeting.

Well, today was FINALLY my first meeting. I am appalled at the number on the scale.  I don't think I'm brave enough to post the start weight yet, but I'm sure I will soon.  I am planning on taking a before picture tomorrow or Friday and I will post that ASAP.

Our meeting today was about Success Stories and our motivation strategies.

How people felt at the beginning of their journey- well, since this is the beginning of my journey- I am at the heaviest I have EVER been and I feel WORSE than I have ever felt.  I want to have a better quality of life.  I want to be able to LIVE and to do all the things that I dream about.

Right now, I am tired all the time.  I have lousy sleep.  My confidence is low.  I know that something has to change, or I will die young.  Quite frankly- I am terrified.  I don't want this time at Weight Watchers to be like the other times I starter- I gave up.  I want this to be forever. I want to be changed. I want to in 4 years from now- be SO healthy and SO happy that I started- TODAY.

I walked into my first WW meeting in 2006.  Back then, I weighed 60 lbs less than I do now, and at my lightest I was 80 lbs lighter than I am now.  That is so frustrating. Had I just stuck with it these last 8 years...... I would be healthy and happy, and LIVING.  But, I'm not.  I chose food over life.  I chose food.  i don't want to choose my addiction to food over my goals anymore.  So- I won't.  Today is the LAST day I will ever see that number on the scale.  Once woman in my group tonight talked about taking the journey one week at a time, and another woman said 5 at a time. 5 pounds at a time.  NOT the big picture, but the tiny win.  The 5 here and there.  My favorite quote of the night was "New Numbers."  She said, "All I want is new numbers."  That's what I want.  new numbers.  Smaller numbers. I'm ready.  I think that this blogging business will also help with my ability to stay motivated. I am tracking every step of this process.

My future starts today. My today changes my tomorrow and the kind of years I will have 2015, 2016, 2017.  

What motivates you?  Where are you in your journey?  How did you feel at the beginning of your weight loss story?